a loss = a gain

A little sad that moving out means that you have truly stepped out of my life. But it also means that your somewat tormenting prescence around me will end. maybe then, I will truly move on. Because why shld I bother about someone who has deserted me, when I am surrounded by other friends who care.

Some day, some time, some moment ago in my life, I believed u to be the friend who truly understood me the most and mattered the most.

In this stage of my life, I believe that the love between friends is a lot more.. what's the word? precious? stable? than the love between a couple. It seems a bit weird... but just like... I can see myself caring for this friend till we are old, but I don't see the stability within me and a bf. rj called me cynical this morning.. but let me try explaining. Kind of like... in UNI.. we have friends of 6 - 10 years easily, but we are so easily impressed by couples who tell them they have been togeher for 5 years and above. even 3 years, people say wah.. not bad.. so long already. What?! why are we so impressed by relationships of 5 years and beyond, when we have friends who have been there for us for durations twice over. People seem to change bf more often than changing friends. So at the end of the day, it seems to me that friends go a loonger way than a love interest.

those who think i am sprouting nonsense, just take it that this single has to make some noise and has to settle for glorifying friends cos she has no one else.

once u were that one friend

once when life was simple and good

which is what it will be like once again now

only without u

really really had enough

because I had none of you at all.

memories

1 paper on the April 22
2 papers on April 24

Moved out of hall on the May 6.

Spent slightly over 10 days in hall despite having already ended my papers.

But it's still not enough. I moved out of hall today.

Have been really busy these few days, but I was really happy. Satisfied with life. Nothing better than spending my time with my friends.

I slept less in the last 10 days after my exams, then in the few days preparing for my exams.

Time is too precious to spend on sleeping. There are too many things I want to do before I leave the hall. And I did them. But I guess it's never enough. I will miss the good times I had these 4 yrs in hall. And of cos this month of intense bonding before we depart.

I will miss the month of breakfasts with leong, jieming and ranjan. yes, it's a month! cos breakfast started with leong and ranjan waking us up for breakfast after burning the night away editing the blk videos. Miss being a brat and having to be dragged out of bed. It's so simple, but the simple effort made by u guys to come down to 4th floor to jio me means plenty. Miss being tortured by SHUAI GE and special treatment to e 2, though I benefitted too. Miss eating toasted butter sugar toast.

I will miss being yelled at for being a pest on the 5th floor for playing bridge at the cosy corner.

I will miss talking at the rooftop and the drinking sessions.

I will actually miss studying! But more so, because I miss studying with big egg tarts in the studyroom or in their rooms. But somehow never in my room. I will miss being woken up at noon time to study.

I seriously feel the desperation in doing whatever I could in the last 10 days. I went shopping, played basketball, tennis, frisbee, had a bbq, went ktving, sushi buffeting, billybommering, movie-watching, did frantic photo editing and photo frame production, and somehow managed to cover myself with tons of glitter.

Knew someone didn't want a note, cos it seems like we are parting ways and saying our final goodbyes, but yeah.. I just had to write it. Cos this period really passed so fast, like a dream. And I did want to write a great many notes, but the ever so last-minute me, didn't manage to do so, in the midst of trying to do everything, on top of packing her room and editing her FYP, which I seriously procrastinated till the latest possible minute.

Being happy is bad for my body. I put back the 2 kg I lost during FYP. . Then again, anything can make me put on weight.

Ok, I am crazy, considering my lack of sleep the last weeks and that its 3.30am and I have to wake at 4.45, cos I have a flight to hongkong at 6.40am. Updates when i am back and bored , and no one is askign me out and I am slacking at home =)