Be careful of what you wish for, because it will come true

Come to think of it... I almost always get what I wish for.

2 weeks ago...
Silly Me was thinking
"Final year is so different. I feel so unmotivated.. I really miss the times in yr 1 to 3, where there were hard deadlines. Back then, I felt more motivated to hide in the study room or plant myself in front of my lappy for hours, driven to meet the deadlines. And my brain was blank... Work work work work! Now you have this loong project right in front of you that where there is no constant deadline for you to meet and I've started to adopt a lacklustre attitude towards it. My other 3 modules seem to be so slack compared to 2007's killer project, 3103's tideous labs or CS1102's weekly submissions. I miss being stressed out with my companions of programming.. Everyday, I just read my notes and then I have nothing to do. It must be because I'm so free that I think too much. I wish I had those constant deadlines to meet to keep me focused and my mind where it should be. Oh how, I miss the stressful times then"

What the hell was I thinking?? I must have been insane!! Humans are sucker for punishment. No work, we complain... Now got work, I complain even more!

This week
ARGH!!!!!!!!!! I have so many things to do!! I'm not saying that I'm already numb, but yeah... Thank you god for the onslaught of "distractions". You wish for work, you get work! You want deadlines, someone will give you deadlines. I said I wanted to get back into Mugger Ek mode.. Oh well.. come come... someone will give you LOTS to mug about. I think we all need chances to take a step back for some time. You never know how things will change with time.

I have to....
STUDY for ee3601 CA2
Attend EE3601 make-up lecture
Listen to EE3601 webcast

Do Fuzzy Assignment
HR Presentation

Come up with Membership function optimisation agent for FYP.


Many times, I've wished for something. During that time, it really seemed as if that was what I wanted, but after having had my wish fulfilled, then do I realise that what was given to me, wasn't what I really wanted things to be. So yeah... Silly me... I guess I'm still not mature enough to know what I really what eh? If we aren't sure of what we want, we should becareful of what we wish for.

If you think I'm terribly troubled I'm not.. Don't worry ok? I have lots of work to do. Deal with the situation at hand!! I am studying! Don't worry! I am fine i am good i am ok!

Cake Indulgence

Fell asleep in the study room for 15 minutes, before deciding that my engine was down, and moved upstairs. After washing up, I'm wide awake again and am now starting to waste my time. I should just walk directly to my room, with my eyes straight ahead. I hate myself for always checking, but I can't help it. No matter how many times I try to convince myself, it still hits me everytime. Argh! Thank you for reminding me of the situation almost every night. I could almost hate you to the core. Just Almost. Am I not making sense? Maybe cos I am terribly full. This is not the way to go. Have been eating more than I should the last 2 weeks. Eating is not the solution to all problems. Well.. Just wanna say that 4th floor had 14 slices of 7 assorted flavours of yummy cake from Secret Recipe to ourselves. And all for what. $29? Really appreciate Brendon for being so nice, and buying up so many Secret Recipe cakes for us to trade. Service to the maximum Brendon. You may not be the loudest, most entertaining Blk head around, but I applaud you for your thoughtfulness and big heart! Must have taken quite an effort and plenty of cash to buy 11 cakes for C blk. You must have exclusive Secret Recipe membership now. =)

Someone send me a MatLab Shen to help me!! I need to see my prof on Wednesday and I have nothing to show him. What should I tell him?? For the whole time from sch start to now, I have not understood the prev student's program, yet alone improved on it? Best... I need to shian one very big story. But engine cannot shian... Either you have program or not... Urgh... Will continue trying to save myself tmr after I wake up.